One of my faviorite bands is a Christan Band called Sidewalk Prophets. They sing a song called help me find it. I often hear this song when I am driving Mya to and from her visits with her dad. I have found my self playing this song over and over latly as I am strugugling in trusting the Lord. Mya had a court date this week that I thought was going to a postive one as her parents have both been violating court orders and both been in legal trouble, but it turns out that the state really does not care what happens to these sweet children. My faith was definitely shaken on this day, if I'm being completely honest. I know that we live in such a sinful world but being exposed to it so close is so hard for me. I just can't let go of the idea of sweet Mya returning to this horrible environment. For the last two days my body emotionally has shut down, I know that God can move mountains and I need to be still, but I'm tired and struggling. The song says...
If there is a road I should walk help me find it... (Foster Care)
If I need to be still give me peace for the moment, whatever your will, help me find it...
I'm giving you fear, and you give faith, I'm giving you doubt you give me grace
Even when it hurts, you'll have your way.
I'm searching for that peace, I know that I need to give this to God, but I'm holding on tight with one finger refusing to let go. Even if it hurts I know it's not my way, have your way with me my king, you are all I need.
Lord Thank you so much for the opportunity to serve you and take these sweet babies into my home, please help me find the peace I need and allow me to give this to you.
Have a great weekend!
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